Fear

I never realized it, but I don't think I've ever been terribly afraid before. I thought I was. But apparently not.

This afternoon, someone tried to steal my car. The shaft of the key they used to open the door is snapped off inside the ignition. The car is completely useless. Don't know how long fixing it will take or how much it will cost. Apparently I'm not the first car someone's tried to steal this week in my complex. Security hasn't done a damn thing and the ladies in the office are furious.

And now here I sit, terrified even though there's no threat to me and no way they can take the car now.

Merry Christmas to me. 

Wish List

It's that time of year again and I'm putting out a wishlist for Christmas. It leaves a lot more open, I think, since I've left a handful of websites at the bottom that generally feature products I like, rather than just telling you specific items. And again, I will reiterate: gift cards are a GOOD thing. 

-       Long skirts

-       Snake, fox, cat stuffed animals

-       Chokers, simple necklaces, earrings (prefer silver if metal)

-    Body jewelry (16g hoops in upper ears)

-       Cup headphones, preferably by SkullCandy

-       Small watering can with long neck

-       Lap Desk

-       Garlic Press

-       iPod dock/ iHome, whatever

-       Radio transmitter for iPod

-    Hand weights

-    Nested mixing bowls

-    Small espresso maker or drip coffee maker

-    Flower pots, 4-8 inch

       Books

- Waifs and Strays, by Charles de Lint

- Mirror Mask, by Neil Gaiman

- Dark Lord of Derkholm, by Dianna Wynne Jones

- Cookbooks

- Travel books, especially from Lonely Planet (I already own Great Britan)

- Cooking fiction and nonfiction books

- Travelwriting

- Fantasy and Science Fiction Anthologies (NOT Year’s Best of anything)

- Fables (graphic novel series)

-       CDs

- Soundtrack/Score to any Transformers Movie

- Soundtrack/Score to Avatar

- Soundtrack/Score to Princess and the Frog

- Trans Siberian Orchestra’s Night Castle

- Any Nickleback CD except Dark Horse

- MIKA

-Soundtrack/Score to Alice in Wonderland (2010)

-Soundtrack/Score to Pirates of the Caribbean (Any)

- Soundtrack/Score for Howl’s Moving Castle

- Gaelic Storm

-Shakira

- Pink's Greatest Hits So Far

- Josh Groban

-       DVDs

- How to Train your Dragon

- Star Trek Movie (2009)

- Princess and the Frog

- The Cat Returns

- Despicable Me

- The Pacifier

- Take the Lead

- No Reservations

- Any Harry Potter, LOTR, or Pirates of the Carribean

         Shows

         -Fringe

         - Black Butler

         - NCIS

         - Grimm

         - Doctor Who

         - Firefly

         - Negima

         - D. Gray-Man

Gift Cards

-Starbucks

-Victoria's Secret

- Barnes and Noble

- LushUSA

- ThinkGeek

- iTunes

-Einstein Brothers

-Joann Fabrics

-Hobby Lobby

Places you can find products I like

- ThinkGeek.com

- Etsy.com (Look under Plants and Edibles)

- The WB shop’s section for Harry Potter (I’m a Slytherin)

- Corset Story (I wear a 5XL in fashion corsets)

- Victoria’s Secret

- lushusa.com (I love most of their products, but avoid bath bombs as my tub is not the greatest)

- Neon Husky (I can/am learning to juggle balls, clubs, contact juggle, spin poi, and I hoop dance)

Lost

Well, cross another one off on 'Life Experience Bingo'. I just got laid off.

I don't know how I feel yet. 

Contest

Hey all, just popping in to tell you about this contest: SQUID!

The winner gets a plushie squid. Ain't that awesome?

On dating

If the only reason you have to be interested in me is my sexuality, you are barking up the wrong tree, my friend.

If the only reason you want me is sex, then you have another thing coming: blue balls. I'm not that girl.

If the only reason you are speaking to me is because you think you have a chance at touching my breasts because you're behaving yourself, keep your hands in your pockets and don't come near me again.

If you think you are smarter than me because I am pretty and that means I'm stupid, I dare you to outsmart me.

If you think I'm a stupid hippie because I love plants and the outdoors, you should talk to a few hippies. They are some of the most incredible people I know.

If the only reason you're talking to me is because you want someone to talk to, to have long conversations about the most obscure topics, then you might be headed in the right direction.

If the only reason you tell me I'm pretty is because you want to see me smile, then you're smarter than you think.

I am not a slut. I am not easy. I am not here for the sex. I will not lift my shirt or drop my jeans because you think you're some alpha male deserving of my attentions. Just by thinking that, you are proving that I, the girl with the boobs and the hips and the romance-novel hair and the earrings and pretty makeup, have a bigger dick than you, the idiot with the work boots and the jacked-up truck and the chew or the weed or the hookah, can ever hope to have. I don't play those games, and you can leave me alone. 

Tagged again

So someone tagged me for the 10 Things meme again, so I guess I'll do it. If you're new to this little game, you have to list 10 things about yourself that most people don't know.

10 Things about me you may not know

1. I don't get nasty about most things, but I can be a complete bitch when it comes to proper grammar, syntax, spelling, and related topics. I take pleasure in picking apart discussion posts written by people who don't know what they're doing or what they're talking about, but doing it in a careful, relevant way. I will snark about it where you cannot hear, because there is a line between criticism and flaming, and I know where it is. 
2. I am not as stupid as my chest measurements would make you think. 
3. I love technology. I just prefer to do lots of things without it. 
4. I love garlic. Seriously. It's my favorite thing to cook with. 
5. Actually, I love rice, too. It goes so well with so many things!
6. I say love often, but I have only told three significant others that I loved them. 
7. I'm still in love with one of my exes. It's sad and silly and I tell myself to move on, but at this point, I think it's best to go on loving her, so long as I don't hurt either of us while I do it. 
8. I miss cool, wet weather. 
9. Sometimes, I love and even want to have a tattoo somewhere it's hard to hide. 
10. I curse more in my sleep than I do when I'm awake. 

Dead Week

Hey there everyone. Know what time it is?

IT'S DEAD WEEK!

For those of you not in the know, Dead Week is the final week of college classes before finals begin. That's right.....I have one week of classes, one week of finals, and then I'm back in Taos for the summer. Well, most of the summer. I've got a week back down here in June and the possibility of a brief roadtrip up into Colorado at some point. And my birthday. I'm turning twenty one!

Wish me luck in these last two weeks! 

Bingo

Welcome back, y'all. Today's topic is a little game I like to call sucky relationship situation bingo. Get five or more unique sucky relationship situations in a row and you win a fabulous prize!

[x] Cheated on
[x] Used to cheat on someone else
[x] Dumped because you wouldn't put out
[x] Public breakup (bonus points if there was a scene)
[x] Dumped for someone else
[x] Dumped because s/he realized their sexuality doesn't include your gender
[x] Rejected by proxy
[x] Dumped via complete cease of communication
[x] Accused of being a cock-block and a slut by the same person
[x] Dumped them because they were using you as a mother/father/etc figure
[x] Was expected to give up something for the relationship (such as college)
[x] Repeatedly approached by the ex because s/he still wants you
[x] Existence of former relationship denied by ex-partner
[x] Introduced as 'my ex' to ex's new partner
[x] Publicly humiliated by partner
[x] Dumped for being honest
[x] Stood up
[x] Made to wait for hours
[x] Was made to feel bad for being sick/hurt/temporarily physically weakened
[x] Left alone when you needed them most
[x] Spent more time with your friends than with you

There are others. Sometimes I seriously wonder why I even bother anymore.

Buh?

It's amazing how a little weather can make the world around you go absolutely nuts.

I've spent the last three nights sleeping on a friend's floor, all the way across town where there was power and heat. From my safe little haven I kept track of other people I know running around in a panic because there were rolling blackouts across town, freezing temperatures, and busted pipes all over. Everything shut down. Everyone acted like the world was coming to an end and inadvertently managed to make things harder on the people who were trying to get us back on line. Mass hysteria is a strange thing.

And to the moron who thought it was a clever idea to pull the fire alarm at 12:51am on a night when it was maybe 10 degrees outside, I hope you get frostbite on some vital bodyparts.

A New Year has come again...

...and I have another one of these posts to make. Last year I made a list of New Year's Resolutions that was impressive, lengthy, and covered a wide range of activities and goals. I don't think I completed or kept up a single one. Epic fail on my part, sure, but it's also given me a thought: why am I picking such small, concrete things to swear I'm going to do in a year? I'm fencing myself in and by doing so, I'm making it hard to get anything accomplished. So....

In the New Year, I Resolve to be happier, healthier, and calmer. I will take walks and sleep in and just be if I want to. I will eat better because I want to, not because anybody told me to. I will love, and I will love me for loving them. I will get outside more and stress out less. And I will not care if I don't do all these things.

And, for those of you who don't already know... I am now happily in a relationship.